"You want to use me and you think I'm weak, so you can get me for cheap. Do you think you're the only one that wants me? I can have my pick and you're nowhere near the top." It was both a blatant lie and painfully true. "You're in this mess because you pissed the wrong guy off. You want me to risk my own neck for a broken iPod and your worn out ass? That's the issue, Axel. You should have tried me when I couldn't afford to have standards."
Hartley wished the words wouldn't hurt to say. But at least he had gotten better at hiding his heart. If Axel knew how much he just wanted to hold him and keep him safe from everything, he'd never do anything but use him again.
Usually insults didn't get to Axel, not these days. He had a pretty thick skin and was used to people calling him stuff like this but Hartley? Someone who once looked at him with such affection before he missed it up. Axel closed his eyes for a few moments, unsure why his chest felt tight. He guessed he could still be hurt. Who knew? He shoved the ipod back into his pocket with his cigarettes and bit down hard, gritting his teeth together. No, he refused to get sad. It was easier to get angry.
"You think you're better than me? You know what, fuck you." Axel knew Hartley was but hell, he didn't need it rubbed in his face. "I don't need your help anyway, I was just offering you a chance to be with me. Not like a pathetic little fucker like you could ever get any real company but whatever. I don't need this bullshit. Enjoy jacking yourself off like a lonely pervert."
It was not satisfying to see Axel hurt like this, but it was... It was good, in a way. A sign that Axel wasn't completely dead inside. Hartley sighed and held his hand out. He wanted to hold Axel. He wanted to kiss him. He wanted to kiss all along his face and tell him how beautiful he was, all that sappy stuff. He still wasn't over that crush, but the only way he could keep Axel's respect was by hiding it. "Give me the iPod and I'll look out for you until you find someone else."
It was a pity offer. A pity offer by someone who just kicked him down like that and most of the time, Axel could deal, he was used to being spoken to like he was nothing but from Hartley? He didn't even remember he had pride until it was wounded now. "I need it to get real protection. Fuck your pity and fuck you." Yeah, he'd regret this later but right now, he was too hurt to even consider taking that hand. He scowled at Hartley and moved out of his cell.
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Hartley wished the words wouldn't hurt to say. But at least he had gotten better at hiding his heart. If Axel knew how much he just wanted to hold him and keep him safe from everything, he'd never do anything but use him again.
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"You think you're better than me? You know what, fuck you." Axel knew Hartley was but hell, he didn't need it rubbed in his face. "I don't need your help anyway, I was just offering you a chance to be with me. Not like a pathetic little fucker like you could ever get any real company but whatever. I don't need this bullshit. Enjoy jacking yourself off like a lonely pervert."
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