Kiss Kiss Bang Bang

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[mostlyajerk]

I did. Direct any complaints elsewhere.

I don't feel like it.

[viber]

I have none.

You that's it? You're not coming back? Not gonna see James again either?

[mostlyajerk]

I see James all the time. I see his blood on my clothes, I hear his laughter in my nightmares, I smell his rotting body. Enough for one lifetime.

[viber]

I'm sorry about what Barry did, I'm sorry we all let you down the first time and hell, the second time but he's not dead.

He's not a rotting corpse now either.

[mostlyajerk]

And I'd wager a guess that he'd not want to be near someone who only sees a corpse when looking at him.

I don't know what I'm doing yet. I won't end the universe, if that helps.

[viber]

Then let me help you.

You need it, man. You'll go off the deep end.

[mostlyajerk]

How about you and Barry help me again, because that just means I can fuck off while you do fuck all.

[viber]

What part of 'trapped in a vibe' are you not grasping.

Nu-uh, we are not doing this, you are not being all angsty jerk. I get it, it sucked and what Barry did, it leaves marks. Do you have any idea how many things I've seen him undo? How many friends I've seen die? How many times I felt my own death?

Pushing everyone away fixes nothing but you want to go off and be mad? Do it. Just don't do it to people you care about like a dick.

[mostlyajerk]

All I am doing is telling you that I'm alive. I'm keeping it together for the universe. So, yes, I'm staying away from people I care about. And Barry.

I'm sorry, Cisco. I'm just not. I can't.

[viber]

You got to get over this Barry thing. And yourself.

When you do, we're here. Until then? Maybe you should stay away.

[mostlyajerk]

My point exactly. This is me, fucking off.

[viber]

James cried when I told him you were alive.

He asked where you are. I lied to him and said I didn't know. You're welcome.

[mostlyajerk]

Thank you, my friend.

[viber]

Friends don't make friends lie.

[mostlyajerk]

It's not my fault you know where I am. It wasn't my fault that I knew that the timelines changed. It's not our fault that we are what we are.

[viber]

It's not as simple as that and you know it.

See you whenever you get over yourself.

[mostlyajerk]

Nothing is simple! I just can't be around people right now. I can't. I can barely make myself function and I know that I can't deal with people. I just wanted to let you know that I'm alive and I can't deal. Why do you want me to feel selfish or guilty because of that? What else do I have to do?

[viber]

I don't. I want you go away, feel better and come back. And hopefully you'll be able to forgive us all then. People make mistakes.

Go. Be safe. See you soon.