I think it works a bit like that. You know in cartoons, when you have the shoulder devil and shoulder angel? You just have to see which side has the better arguments.
Although if your shoulder angel is Hartley, your shoulder devil is getting his ass kicked.
You are not supposed to kill anyway, we don't do that. And I'd rather have plans about getting things for us than hurting people. What do you like about hurting people anyway? Just you. Not what your parents say.
You are worthy, because you are a great guy. You are a genius, Axel, you are your own person. You don't have to prove anything to your father. That's just something they do to use you.
It's strange for me to imagine. But my dad never really talked to me. He just taught me his lessons and he used me.
I think when you have to step back and figure out who you should keep in your life, you should look at the people who did stuff for you, not just the ones who wanted you to do stuff for them.
Hartley always came to visit. Cause he thought I was lonely and he wanted to bring me things. He came every week he could and I never had that. A friend. I didn't make friends at school or connect or anything. Then I had him. And I almost had you guys till Leonard fucked off and broke up the rogues.
I think Lenny felt lost in some ways after he killed our dad. Although our dad sucked. Because our dad made Lenny what he was, even if he did it by being awful and even if he did it just for himself. I think that's why he went off, that's why he became like a hero. He was always a hero for me though.
Hartley is a good person. If he makes you feel special the way you are, maybe that's more important than proving yurself to your dad.
He was like my dad. Or my mom. Or both. He raised me. And he never thought that he was any good at it and I definitely let him down. I let him down and then I was mad at him for failing him, but if he hadn't believed in me, I think I'd be dead.
I think you can be whatever you want to be. However you want to be. As long as you are still with the rogues too!
I'm glad you're not dead. Without you, I'd be in prison and we wouldn't have the rogues. I think the best way to honour your brother is what we're doing. And we can stick to his rules. They're pretty smart rules.
No killing. Although that is just the obvious rules, there are like ten billion more rules for how to plan stuff and what to do with the loot and man. I am glad he isn't here to tell me how much I suck at it.
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mostlyajerk) wrote2018-01-24 02:00 pm
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What about drugs? Or like... I don't know. Can I buy them?
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Really? Cause I don't have one
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You probably don't have one because you didn't really have role models that would give you one.
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My mom and my dad said do what makes me happy. Killing makes me happy. And hurting people and stuff like that.
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Although if your shoulder angel is Hartley, your shoulder devil is getting his ass kicked.
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I LOVE HIM!!!
But he wants me to have morals and principles 'for me' and not for him. That's bullshit cause I don't have them. Unless I have them for him!
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What principles and morals are we talking about here anyway? Maybe you can some and you just didn't realise.
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I can't kill or actively hurt people to a really high degree, I guess. Hartley has standards.
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You are not supposed to kill anyway, we don't do that. And I'd rather have plans about getting things for us than hurting people. What do you like about hurting people anyway? Just you. Not what your parents say.
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I don't know what I like about it.
Makes me strong.
Powerful.
Like my dad.
He's never going to want to talk to me again unless I show him I'm worthy. I'm wortyh it to have this legacy. I have to do this right.
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Whatever, I don't care.
It doesn't matter.
It's cool.
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I think when you have to step back and figure out who you should keep in your life, you should look at the people who did stuff for you, not just the ones who wanted you to do stuff for them.
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Hartley always came to visit. Cause he thought I was lonely and he wanted to bring me things. He came every week he could and I never had that. A friend. I didn't make friends at school or connect or anything. Then I had him. And I almost had you guys till Leonard fucked off and broke up the rogues.
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Hartley is a good person. If he makes you feel special the way you are, maybe that's more important than proving yurself to your dad.
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I get what you mean.
I should try. Be better. I am better. I just -- sometimes it's a lot.
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I think you can be whatever you want to be. However you want to be. As long as you are still with the rogues too!
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No killing. Seems legit.
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;)
Now tell me about you and Hartley.
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He's cute, funny, beautiful, amazing, beautiful, so smart, he has rats and he's so beautiful and he pet my head last timeanditfeltamazing1!!!!!!!!!!!
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So, are you dating now?
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I'll win him over yet!
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