"I'll try. Look, it's just harder to get excited. It's been hard for a long time and I'm not going to coddle you now and pretend that you didn't make it harder again. I'm struggling to get over it, but the real truth is that there is less exciting stuff to share, because I don't want to get excited. It's not like I skip around prancing and dancing whenever you're not in the room." Hartley petted one of the rats and smiled at it. "But rats are pretty exciting, I'll give you that."