"It's not, I should have been here but I couldn't be here and now I feel like a dick." And he probably should. He ditched his boyfriend because he was doing well in his life? What the fuck was even wrong with him? He should have been thrilled and instead, he just saw the inevitable decline of what they had. A fancy college boy with all that money and a growing future, like he was going to want a trainwreck like him long term. He was a kid crush, not a real thing. He got it, he didn't mind it, it just sucked now he was starting to realise it.

"I would rather you were pissed off at me than being nice."