"I don't like bad feelings. When I get bad feelings, I ignore them until they go away." Which was childish and dumb but he didn't like to deal with them. When Hartley and he kissed, he felt so much love and wanting in him. And it terrified him. He had no idea what to do with the fear and so he did what he always did. He pushed him away. And he still regretted it. "Some don't. No matter how I try or how much I want to just ignore them."

He lay back but reached up one hand to idly playing with Hartley's hair as he stitched him up. "I'm sorry I hurt you. I was a dick. Can we be friends again? I miss you a lot."